when it rains, it blogs

21Oct09

I have a hankering to write this morning since it’s raining hard outside, the girls are busy in their room doing something that sounds really cute and my biggest plan today is making a scrumptious dinner and maybe a rain walk if the downpour lessens.

Last time writing here, I was in the throws of nicotine withdrawal for the second time in less than two weeks and I’m proud to say that it’s now been ten days for me; four days for Colin.

Since we’re both over the worst of it, it seems as though we’ve become a sort of force … full to the brim with new found life, energy, inspiration … time. Time to talk and wander, walk and ponder. I’m sure it’s just a mental thing but when you kick such a big part of your life – a part that used up so much time and money – you feel newly rich.

There are so many things we want to do now – together and individually – because if we can quit smoking then we can do anything and I vaguely remember this feeling from the olden days, pre-children, when we quit smoking for three years and really did do anything even though it mostly included weekend ski and road trips, fancy dates and outings and exercise by way of hikes, roller blades and wandering in the rain under an umbrella for hours.

So many days and nights were spent talking excitedly and passionately about what we wanted to do and where we wanted to go and those days and nights are back but this time the ‘have a baby’ item has been checked off the list. Twice.

I love being at this place again.

The only downside to quitting has been weight gain. I’ve gained 3-5 lbs in about 10 days depending on the time of day I weigh myself and that kind of sucks but not. While I feel it in my tummy, the only body parts that are noticeably bigger are my boobs (yesterday I tried on a chocolate brown zip front hoodie with to-die-for baby soft lining and the poor zipper threatened to explode in the chest region so I had to pass; sadness), but I think I might be able to accept this gain for once in my life because I feel good and seriously healthy plus Colin’s in heaven so I’m rather pleased.

We’ve been getting rid of so much lately. On Sunday we donated four black garbage bags of clothing to goodwill … we’re selling stuff on craigslist like nobody’s business and it’s like I’m able to breathe for the first time in years. Non-productive clutter is so, so damaging to my mental well being and I’m sure I’m not alone on that one.

I’m not talking about the day-to-day clutter that’s easily put away at night, rather, the ‘areas’ that become places to deposit crap and worry about at a later time … closets and drawers full of clothes no one wears anymore … underneath bathroom sinks where quarter full bottles of old product live on … cluttered kitchen cupboards … throwing crap into piles that just get bigger and things get lost in. Wow – it stresses me out writing about it actually.

This past weekend Colin went out and bought a bunch of DVD and CD albums and we got rid of every. single. friggen DVD, CD, computer and video game/program packaging case in this household (except the cool box sets). I never realized how much plastic and paper go into all of that product – it’s unfortunate for the planet but what can you do.

So that’s about it. Planning … becoming passionate again about everything life has to offer … creating and weaving our happiness instead of expecting to “find” it or waiting for it to fall into our laps … growing boobs … cooking up a storm … hockey watching … talking together … walking forward together.

And it’s a good thing we’ve got going on.

I hope you’re all well and that I find a moment to catch up with my fave blogs soon xo

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